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Name: Jessica
Gender: Female
Interests: Reading, Writing, Photography, Art, Philosophy, Collecting Quotes, Nintendo DS, Coloring, Stick Figures, Apple Juice, Dinosaurs, Poetry, Design, Reorganizing My Room, Chicago, Sharpies, Cupcakes, Sex Muffins.
Occupation: Lazy.
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Member Since:
2/26/2008
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| The excavators of bones will witness nothing
of emaciated dreams because they are dreamers
with applicable realism. There is nothing realistic about five in the morning
and watching the sunrise with handfuls of surplus pages.
There is no money in feeling the pulsating rhythm of ink
running from fingertips and knowing these ideas will end in transfusion.
There is only a moment on repeat
going by a different name,
a skipping track to which the words were always known. Aging is not the development of wrinkles.
It is not a carousel of seasons or a whirlwind romance.
It is not composting leaves that dissolve into the smell of winter. It’s a mind-blowing fuck watching
empty birdcages swinging from the ceiling
and climaxing with the word freedom on your lips. | | |
| Umm what to say?
Things are good.
There's this boy I like,
and he's kind of my boyfriend now.
=X
He's pretty lovely.
Things from the past keep grabbing my ankles,
and I keep walking,
but that doesn't mean I'm not dragging them behind me.
I've lost like ten pounds since getting to college.
On my way to the freshmen negative fifteen?
Word.
**Insert more shallow subject matter here**
I'm writing again.
Oh it feels good.
Like breathing, you know?
Clean.
I'm going home in three days.
Home.
Home.
Home.
I am happy.
I love the holidays.
I love walking downtown in the snow.
I love
hot chocolate,
knee socks,
fireplaces,
snowmen,
christmas cookies
sledding,
red cheeks.
Oh winter...
I think Benjamin is riding the train with me Friday
and then waiting with me for five hours
while I wait for my train home.
home.
home.
home.
I told you he was lovely.
=]
He's also...
mmmmm.
p.s. I'm sorry I am a girl and therefore crazy B.
I have a paper to write.
That is not lovely.
I should go do that.
I might blog about something real in the near future.
Who knows.
just smiled and lit a cigarette
said that's impossible to do,
J.
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| My nose is all runny and gross,
however on the plus side
I'm wearing a dress with argyle tights
and I just look darling.
((Also, I'm incredibly modest. Obviously.))
Ben's ego is wearing off on me.
I really have to stop mentioning him in here.
But one last thing before I do.
Umm Benjamin taught himself
how to do everything in four chapters of my econ book
and stayed up literally all night helping me study
so that I would not fail my exam.
I know I said it a million times the other night,
but do you know how wonderful you are??
Really.
Shucks.
My left eye has been all irritated lately,
it was kind of gross, so I've been wearing glasses.
Today was the first day in quite a few
that I've worn my contacts.
I'm going home in less than a week.
That's so strange to me.
I feel like I have two lives,
or like I'm a double-agent,
or something nifty like that.
I fell asleep with Ben and Erin
watching Yes Man last night.
I'm pretty sure that's the fourth time
that I've watched it this week haha.
You know what's odd?
I keep running in to kids
that I went to elementary school with.
Hi Brad!
I slept for a little last night,
but I ended up waking up and
spending the early hours of the morning
listening to Rogue Wave sing Maps
over and over again
while I read.
Eventually Pokemon cartoons came on tv.
I really really really did not want to go to Biology lab this morning.
J: who cares about the study of life, no one cares about life!
E: ben cares about life! it's his major! he's majoring in life!
J: he can go disguised as me. i will go give him my dress to wear. and the teacher will go "well ben you are looking sexy today" and then he can make his sex eyes and be like "i know"
Then we laughed and laughed at this idea.
It got funnier the more we thought about it.
This is probably not funny to anyone else,
so I'm not sure why I wrote it.
It was quite funny when I was half asleep.
So anyway, I proceeded to go to class
and had to walk around the woods
picking up leaves and pretending that
I actually gave a damn.
Although I did learn the term "leaf litter."
So that might have made it all worth it.
babble
babble
babble,
J.
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| Lately I've been falling in love
with little things all over the place.
It's been so long
since I've felt like that.
I'm falling in love with music all over again.
I think there's something poetic,
about glow in the dark stars falling from my ceiling.
I make wishes on them after they hit the floor,
no matter how silly that is.
Words have meaning again
when I see them written on a page.
I hope someone knows what I mean.
Right now, I'm drinking coffee,
and it smells like winter outside,
and everything is just so damn beautiful.
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| I am going to study for my econ exam now.
On the real.
I have to ace this.
It's not even an option.
My sleeping habits are so out of whack.
More so than usual.
Last night was a good time.
Erin and I had a pre-Christmas party.
We watched holiday-esque movies
((The Holiday and Love Actually)),
ate non-denominational winter oreos,
colored in fuzzy velvet Christmas posters,
drank hot chocolate,
and wore Santa hats.
It was loverly.
I fell asleep somehow and woke up
to find Alice in Wonderland
((aka the SCARIEST Disney movie ever))
playing and Kris, Cooper, and Ben arriving.
I went back to Ben's and watched
30 Rock and
Fast Times at Ridgemont High.
I fell asleep and woke up at two this afternoon,
meaning I got back to my own room at three.
...Meaning I haven't studied yet.
Also, Benjamin...
as a side note...
you cannot just start speaking French to a girl...
**blush**
Stop being so cute.
Alright, so...
I'm totally going to go study now.
Anyone want to buy me a shirt that says
Talk Nerdy to Me
with dork glasses on it?
I'll love you foreverrrrrs if you do!
it's got me out of my head
and I don't know what I came for,
J.
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